more than three years passed from 2012. the years where all this shit was begin. yes, I've realize that all this make me blind till i ignore anything. even i ignore someone who really love at all for someone that i love who have give all this shit. i just realize, and its too late. there are so many thing that missed out and i have sacrifice for him, but everything is useless now. maybe God punish me now, and i have accept this. i deserve to have this because its all happened because of my fool and my stupid love. all this time when i was with him, i just see love and trying to make him happy even i always protect him for all mistakes that he made, i solve all his problem and i sacrifice my self. but what i get now? regrets,  that's it. i do it all because i want See him became someone, someone success, someone good, someone better. but it seems that he is a man without heart. he can't even understand what i do, but its OK. i don't wanna stay longer in all this shit. i hope i can make anything better, i just try to make my life better like yesterday before i meet him. I'm sorry God, and my parents for all the mistakes that i have made. i love you.