if could honest,,my life is completely complicated...
i feel like i am in a mess and all this problem like ruin all my life..
it's hard for me to be between my family and someone i love. in one side, i want to become a good daughter for my parents, i want to make them proud to me. just won't to make them hard,but i want to help my bf. i love him actually, but i don't know how to explain. he never want to understand, he is selfish, everything i was done were wrong for him. he makes me in hard situations,,i really don't understand. i just hope that god will give him a brightness so he can understand me..
i just want him to be adult, see all the problem with positive perspection,learn to solve his problem without bothering any one. he emotional attittude make me speechless,and i can't do anything. not because i am afraid or something,but i just keep our relationship stay calm and good without any fight. he never can't understand..
help me God...

This is the second day...
at first, i didn't serious to purpose in this company and i hope the director wouldn't accept my application,but they did.
a little bit,dissapointed and regret,but what can i do?
and you know,,,this is absolutely like imagination about this place..
relax job, relax employe,and much more relax than work.
i am boring actually,this is not what i expected...
and i can't imagine how can survive here in 3 month. oh my god,,, forgive me. give me a strength and patient...